Beyond That Restless Place

In our new Monday post, Laura talks about struggling through an “in-between” time in her life, and I tell Laura that I just got through that. I want to explain a little bit more about my story there, in case you’re in that restless place too.😘

A little over three years ago, I found myself overloaded. I was working two part-time jobs, managing two blogs, among other various things. My daily routine was insane; it amounted to putting out the biggest fires first.♨️ (Oh, and by the way, I had three kids: ages 4, 7, and 10!)

Feeling like I was running on empty and not giving my kids enough of my energy, I quit my favorite part-time job (directing a musical), and most of the other commitments I had. I built my schedule around my kids.

Over the next year, I had that increasingly nagging feeling of restlessness that Laura talked about. And any time someone asked me about my “passion” or my next steps in my career, I had the worst sinking feeling inside.😔

The following year, my youngest started Kindergarten. I had no more “babies” at home.😱 I quit my other part-time job. I started praying almost daily for God to show me what was next, but I felt like there was no answer. In an effort to make money and stay on the same schedule as my kids, I started subbing.

At the end of the school year, I saw a job posting on the bulletin board of one of the schools where I subbed: Junior High Theater Director position. I thought — God put this notice RIGHT HERE so I could see it.😍

I applied for the job and talked to the principal. He wanted to hire a current staff member, no matter how much experience I had. I was so disappointed, and confused–Why did God lead me here?😢

I faced the fact that I had given up one of my passions — directing — and I couldn’t get it back. I had made a huge mistake.

Three days later, I got a call out of the blue from my former boss (from my original directing job). Due to certain circumstances, she was offering me the job again! My heart soared! 💜

Suddenly I realized, it had all come together! The next year, when my youngest would be in full- day first grade, I would be able to write and direct the musical in the fall/winter–my two favorite things!!!👏 I honestly think that God let me see that job posting so that I would realize how much I missed directing and my heart was open to it when I got that call.

Looking back now over the past 3 years, God has been PERFECTLY faithful. Although it felt incredibly slow, He had it all along. And He knew the desires of my heart when I wasn’t even ready to admit what they were. He knew I needed to clear my plate and start over.

Now, honestly, the restless feeling is totally gone. When I think about my path ahead, I don’t know exactly where it will go, but I feel much more at peace that He’s already preparing it for me–good things.🤝

If you are feeling lost today, not sure what your future holds, hang on. He’s working on it. He’s always up ahead of us, preparing the way.🏗 And do not fear saying “no” to something right now. If it’s the right thing for your life, God will bring it back around.
💜Anna

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