Do You See Me?

Laura
Laura

Do you ever feel like yelling, “Hey! Is anyone out there?!!” I mean, I live in this house full of people and sometimes I have to shout to be heard over the roar, and even then no one seems to see or hear me!

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

I agree….my twin used to tap his collarbone and say, “Is this thing on?” 🎤  and I feel like I want to say the same thing sometimes. “Hello??” 😜

And though we joke,  in all seriousness, this has been an issue with me and my hubby the last few months…or maybe…years. 😬

Michelle
Laura
Laura

I’m so sorry.  I totally feel your frustration.  Sometimes I feel like no one really sees all of the hard work I am doing.   Does anyone care that I folded 14 loads of laundry this week and put it all away?

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

Motherhood can feel really thankless at times, can’t it? And I’m sure our hubbies could say the same about all of the ways they’re working too. But I know in our home, it feels like we just are on different planets sometimes.🌎  And we need better glasses or something to see how each of us contributes, you know?!

Michelle
Laura
Laura

Yes, I know… otherwise that darn resentment creeps in and blinds me!  And maybe that is what is happening on his side too.  I’m being blinded by this, he’s being blinded by that, and all of a sudden we don’t see each other.  Then the cycle happens all over again: I don’t feel seen, resentment sinks in deeper, and then I don’t see him either. 😠 😞

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

You definitely described what happens sometimes in our house! We call it the “crazy cycle”– when neither of us are really being seen, loved, or respected like we need.

Michelle
Laura
Laura

It’s such a frustrating cycle to be stuck in! And while I know we need to work on seeing each other again, and on building one another up instead of just being blind, it seems like there is another way to react to that feeling of not being seen by the one I love.

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

I agree. I am learning this too…that what if instead of reacting every time I feel he chooses work over me, I lean into God? I ask Him to help me hear what He says about who I am when I’m feeling alone and frustrated?

Michelle
Laura
Laura

Yes because no matter how upset or hurt I am, the truth is, I am seen by God.  My security, my worth, my value isn’t in the eyes of my hubby, it’s in the eyes of my God.  Our relationship works better when I know that my hubby sees my worth, but it doesn’t come from Him.  Does that make any sense?

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

Yes, yes, and yes. When my hubby and I were spinning in the crazy cycle a few months ago, I was discouraged and I felt like God was saying to me, “I know this is hard. But I see you in this struggle.” Essentially, I felt He was inviting me into a deeper place with Him. And I felt like He was reminding me that He saw me even if I felt unseen. My circumstances didn’t have to change to feel seen, but my perspective did.

Michelle
Laura
Laura

That’s so encouraging to hear.  Because sometimes marriage is hard and can stay hard for some time.  But it’s good to know that we are seen by God not just sometimes, but all the time.  And the more secure I become in that truth, the more hope I have to work through those “crazy cycles” in my marriage. #thetruthaboutgrowingup

Laura
Michelle
Michelle

So true. And when I don’t feel seen for all I’ve been doing or for who I am, if I’m rooted in God’s truth, it’s so much easier to let that direct my steps rather than my emotions. 💗

Michelle

Soaking in the Truth

 

Scripture to encourage you:

  • “She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: ‘You are the God who sees me,’ for she said, ‘I have now seen the One who sees me.’” (Genesis 16:13, NIV).

 

Music to inspire you:

  • King of My Heart by Bethel Music (Especially the line – “You’re never going to let me down.”)

 

Readings and Resources to come alongside of you:

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Ideas to try:

  • My husband went through a crazy work stretch and I struggled a lot with feeling unseen. What got me through that time was a lot of prayer. Prayer for wisdom for me, prayer for the Holy Spirit to speak to my hubby, and prayer for a deeper place for our marriage. I also listened to the song listed above over and over and over. The truth that even when my hubby lets me down (or I let him down) but God will never let me down was a lifeline for me during that time. ~Michelle
  • I also am a huge advocate of of The Five Love Languages. My hubby and I are working at communicating love in a way that the other needs and I think that definitely helps feeling seen in this full season of parenting. We also have grown tremendously from the theory of the Energizing Cycle in Love and Respect like mentioned above. ~Michelle
  • On my last birthday, my family was in a bit of a busy time, so birthday celebrating needed to be put off a little bit.  I totally understood, it’s just life!  By chance, I happened to be taking my boys to a play date with some dear friends (who may or may not also write on this blog😉 ) and much to my surprise they had gotten me a purple mum (my favorite color), a package of my favorite candy, and some chai tea mix–mmmmmm!  I cannot tell you how special that made me feel.  That these ladies took 15 minutes out of their days to write me a card and drove out of their way to stop at the store for me?!  I felt seen by them on my special day.  It goes a long way for one friend to notice another.  Even a simple text to someone that says, “Hey!  How’s your laundry situation?!” might just make her feel she’s not alone.  That little boost from a friend can make a huge difference. ~Laura
  • We always say below 👇 that we are not experts!  Sometimes we need more help than we can give to one another.  If you and your hubby are struggling with communication and feeling seen by one another, we recommend seeking out a pastor or professional counselor who can help you take steps to reconnecting in a healthier way. We have done it and benefitted from it so you’re not alone.

{These suggestions are ideas from novice moms. Sometimes our life situations need more. In that case, seeking out professional help is the right call.}

 

About Michelle Warner

The truth about me is that I love spending time with people–whether it be with moms in MOPS, students in writing camps, friends in my supper club, or family on our patio. And if you combine people and words, I am definitely in my happy place. One of my most favorite moments is sitting around a table with the people I love sharing deep conversations about life. Inviting people into our home and pulling out my fancy dishes invigorates me, though tackling the hand-wash pile in my sink does quite the opposite. (Sorry, Hubby. I’ll get to those soon!) I’m learning to enjoy the people in my life without feeling the need to prove myself or always make them happy. God continues to teach me that when I find what I need in Him rather than the perfectly-cooked chicken or the perfectly-timed word, I have a security that can’t be shaken. And that’s a good thing since my hard-working husband and I have two very determined little girls who keep us on our toes!

2 thoughts on “Do You See Me?

  1. Oh, I love this! It’s true sometimes it feels like work is more important than me. I totally lean into God too and know that my worth comes from God and nothing else.

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